Today I said goodbye.
Now he is in a better place.

I don't know what to post about really, but I feel like I should write something.
The spring is slowly arriving, the birds have started their little songs and the air smells like new beginnings.
I finished reading the Harry Potter series (again) and I realised how deeply I love the books and the story. I grew up with them, literally, and I don't think any other book will be as precious to me as the seven are.
I've been drawing and painting (with the school application in mind). Several times I have thought about posting some of my drawings here, but find myself hesitating.
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I hope you all have a magical weekend!

I feel nostalgic. I've been reading stories I've written years ago. Some just silly, but some quite inventive, even developable. But it is funny to find how much you love the characters, even in the silly stories. They have been my friends through the years when I've felt the most alone.
Oddly, I find myself at one of those most alone -moments as we speak. Valentine's is approaching. I have never really cared for that day. This year, it seems, even less. But I hope and wish and wish and hope that later this year I would finally find the place I fit in, that I would find the friends I've always been longing for.
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I must clarify: I have the most amazing friends here in the blogosphere, at least that is how I feel. Even your existence makes my days better, the knowledge of so many similar minds out there.

-25 degrees this morning. It is the weather of prickly toes and fingers, redder than red cheeks and vapourised breath. The snow glistens like diamonds and it is softer than powder. And the sun, the sun lights up the treetops and will quickly hide again, it is not yet her time to begin our spring.

I want to tell you about the change I have been writing about, being unnecessarily cryptic.
Last autumn was a hard one for me, I tired myself with my biology studies and began to really look deep into my soul to see what was going on. I realised, completely out of the blue, that I had not been doing things I love in a very long time. I had been living according to what I thought other people expected from me and in the process I had neglected my own wishes. I remembered that before applying to university I had wanted to study art, just be creative, but out of some fear I hadn't even applied.
So this year I have paused my biology studies (indefinitely) and I am applying to a new school to study fine arts (I am hoping so much that I have what it takes to get in!) It is what I want to do.
The biggest leap for me in this equation will be moving out of my hometown into a new city. But in a way I can't wait to have my own kitchen (for some reason, kitchen). I do love my family to bits, but I feel like it is my time to try if my wings can carry me and where they will take me.
(I might be moving even if I, for some reason, didn't get in to the school.)
But this is the change, the big change, that will be happening in my life this year. I feel so excited and horribly terrified at the same time. I know it is going to be a great year!
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Ps. I appreciate all of you out there who have the interest in reading my thoughts and visiting my blog. I know I mentioned a giveaway some months ago and trust me, this spring, before the snow melts, it will happen. ♥