I want to tell you about the change I have been writing about, being unnecessarily cryptic.
Last autumn was a hard one for me, I tired myself with my biology studies and began to really look deep into my soul to see what was going on. I realised, completely out of the blue, that I had not been doing things I love in a very long time. I had been living according to what I thought other people expected from me and in the process I had neglected my own wishes. I remembered that before applying to university I had wanted to study art, just be creative, but out of some fear I hadn't even applied.
So this year I have paused my biology studies (indefinitely) and I am applying to a new school to study fine arts (I am hoping so much that I have what it takes to get in!) It is what I want to do.
The biggest leap for me in this equation will be moving out of my hometown into a new city. But in a way I can't wait to have my own kitchen (for some reason, kitchen). I do love my family to bits, but I feel like it is my time to try if my wings can carry me and where they will take me.
(I might be moving even if I, for some reason, didn't get in to the school.)
But this is the change, the big change, that will be happening in my life this year. I feel so excited and horribly terrified at the same time. I know it is going to be a great year!
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Ps. I appreciate all of you out there who have the interest in reading my thoughts and visiting my blog. I know I mentioned a giveaway some months ago and trust me, this spring, before the snow melts, it will happen. ♥
Last autumn was a hard one for me, I tired myself with my biology studies and began to really look deep into my soul to see what was going on. I realised, completely out of the blue, that I had not been doing things I love in a very long time. I had been living according to what I thought other people expected from me and in the process I had neglected my own wishes. I remembered that before applying to university I had wanted to study art, just be creative, but out of some fear I hadn't even applied.
So this year I have paused my biology studies (indefinitely) and I am applying to a new school to study fine arts (I am hoping so much that I have what it takes to get in!) It is what I want to do.
The biggest leap for me in this equation will be moving out of my hometown into a new city. But in a way I can't wait to have my own kitchen (for some reason, kitchen). I do love my family to bits, but I feel like it is my time to try if my wings can carry me and where they will take me.
(I might be moving even if I, for some reason, didn't get in to the school.)
But this is the change, the big change, that will be happening in my life this year. I feel so excited and horribly terrified at the same time. I know it is going to be a great year!
***
Ps. I appreciate all of you out there who have the interest in reading my thoughts and visiting my blog. I know I mentioned a giveaway some months ago and trust me, this spring, before the snow melts, it will happen. ♥
4 feathers:
I commend you for this! So many people talk about change but don't actually make steps in the direction they'd like to go in. I wish you all the comfort, peace, & confidence in the world as you enter this new chapter in your life. If you know in your heart that this is what you want, I have a good feeling that you will be successful. :)
I wholeheartedly admire you for realizing you needed to take these steps and then taking them. I wish you all the best as you pursue the things which lie close to your heart. I feel sure your wings are more than strong enough to carry you through these strange, new times. ♥
(And your own kitchen? I'm right with you; that does sound pretty nice!)
I wish I had your heart. Good luck on whatever you pursue! xx
"It is what I want to do." ♥ You are the bravest Gryffindor I have ever known. I hope this year will be wonderful and frightening and - above all - exciting. So long as you're doing what you love, remember everything will be alright. x
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